Autumn In My HEART

Time passes fast without we realizing it. and now, it's weekend again..welcome weekand!!! not knowing what to do right now, it makes my mind flies to Malaysia, to my family..how i miss them so much. it reminds me of our precious autumn break together(it would be more precious if papa,along and sue were also here)..they spent about 9days here and here's are some activities that we did together..so much fun and unforgettable memories..


1st day (Friday,2April)- they arrived early in the morning. we then went to the city (king george square) and UQ (University of Queensland). this is where mak su studied 20years ago. such a nostalgic moment.

2nd day (Saturday,3April)- we went to Woolies, wet market and Ismail shop (halal meat shop). mama wants to know how my day life looks like. buying chicken, meat, fresh veges.-'mom's cook'..ya, the best chef ever..in the evening, we went to South Bank.. we then enjoyed the night scenery on the 'city cat' (ferry).



3rd day (Sunday,4April)-we went to Lone Pine Koala Sanctuary. the most excited person was my sis(1st time meeting Mr.Kangaroo and Miss Koala).


4th day (Monday,5April)-We went to Harbour Town. shopping!!!!!

5th day (Tuesday,6April)-We went to DFO. too excited... we were there before the shops opened. It's ok. at least it gave us time to survey what's in there.then,shopping!!!! again..


6th day (Wednesday,7April)-My day off for trips. I had an appointment with Emma, my academic supporter. also need some time to work on my assignment. But, not for my family. They went to Chermside to buy lots and lots of chocolate(it's Easter and they sell various cheap chocolates). just searched for them which bus to take, then there they were..(^^)

7th day (Thursday,8April)-We went to Bribbie Island, Sunshine beach, Noosa Head and Mt. Cootha. Subhanallah..what a wonderful and beautiful creations of Allah...


8th day (Friday,9April)-We went to Gold Coast- my sister and I spent almost the entire day at the Movie World.(luckily there's a prayer room inside it)..my mum and maksu had a 2nd trip shopping at Harbour Town.


9th day (Saturday,10April)- they went back to Malaysia.it was the hardest moment for me and my mum.but not for my sis, I think.she had such a wonderful trip with lots and lots and lots of photos (^___^)

overall,we had wonderful time together.but that did not concern my mum much..The main purpose of her visited me was to make sure that I'm fine and everything goes well. and that's what I tried to show her since the very 1st day. "Lega hati mama tgk awak ok dkt sini. x de la mama risau sgt". Huhu..I felt like crying at that moment and yes, I did. I admit, I'm her little baby. but don't worry mama, I'm learning right now to be more independent but still, no matter how independent I am, 1 thing for sure, I will always be your little baby...ALWAYS..
Miss all of U (mama,papa,along,angah,suraya)..

*for those whose family are planning to come and visit you..do plan your journey to the fullest. make use of all the time. spend your time preciously with your family..

I was born to be a TEACHER??

'da besar nnti saya nk jadi doktor.dapat byk duit'

'cita-cita adik nak jadi artis. artis glamor'

'aku nak jadi angkasawan bila da besar nnti'

Semua dialog ni common bila dtanyakn pd kanak2 ttg cita-cita mereka. saya pn salah sorg drpdnya. sejak kecil,kita dah ada impian ttg masa dpn. kadang2 ada juga ibubapa yg tolong pilihkn cita-cita utk anak2 mereka. pendek kata, manusia merancang ttg masa depan mereka. tapi kadang2 kita lupa bahawa Allah adalah sebaik2 perancang.

Sejak kecil lagi, saya x pernah terfikir utk jd cikgu bila da besar nnti. lbh2 lg cikgu English. tp bila dimuhasabah balik nostalgia2 lalu, saya skrg percaya bhw saya mmg seorang guru. byk je sbnrnya hint2 yg Allah dah bg, sama ada dlm sedar mahupn tidak.

Hint pertama, sejak kecil lg, saya suka main 'cikgu2' dgn adk2 sedara dan selalunya sayalah yg jd cikgu tu. ni kira 'role play' la ni. saya suka sgt bila mngajar.punya la semangat main, mcm betul2 je gayanya.

Hint kedua, bila nk exam kenalah study kan. n for me, the best way to understand certain topic is by teaching it to others. pendek kata, saya suka ajar balik org lain ttg topik tu. lmbt la masuknya klau just baca sendri2 je.

Hint ketiga,lps je SPM, saya di offer utk jd cg sandaran dkt skolah (sorg jiran saya kerja kat pjabat pndidikan daerah dlu). tp dgn sementah2nya saya tolak offer tu. mcm pelik je tetiba nk ngajar kat skolah. sgt la terasa diri x layak utk jd cg. so, bg alasan nk duduk umah dgn family, brapa thun duduk kt asrama, ni la time nk spend dgn family. ok fine, excuse accepted.

tp baru masuk 1 bln, da xtentu arah bosannya duduk di rumah. last2 my mum pn suruh pergi KL duduk dgn maksu. dia suruh tgk2kn adk2 saudara di sana. si kakak nak UPSR, si adik dlm drjh 5. minta tlg ajarkn mereka sikit2. ok la, da mak yg suruh, ikut la kan. maka dgn sendirinya terlantik la saya sbg 'guru tuisyen xbertauliah' mereka. nk djadikan cerita, dua2 ni skolah di private school, means skolah mmg dr pg sampai ke ptg. mlm bru tgk2kn mereka buat homework n bg latihan tmbahan. so, bygknlah apa nk dbuat spnjg waktu siang tu.

Hint keempat, memandangkan maksu pn memahami 'kelapangan' saya, dia pn offer saya utk jd volunteer dkt skolah adk sedara saya 'Khalifah Model School'. Nah, ni twrn kedua utk saya jd cikgu, xkn nk tolak lg kot. so, try je la. saya prnh co-teaching dgn cg2 sbnr n saya juga pernah gantikn cg2 tu mngajar. terus terang saya ckp, wlaupn sakit kpala yg amat stiap kali mngajar, detik2 kat skolah ni antara pngalamn paling manis dlm hidup saya.

Subhanallah, cantiknya aturan rancangan Allah. tanpa saya sedari, sbnrnya Allah dah tunjukkn bhw saya adlh bakal guru. itulah career terbaik utk saya walaupn pd awalnya saya masih x sure sama ada saya patut terus stay di UIA ambil law atau ambil TEFL di mktb. tp skrg saya pasti ni adlh pilihan terbaik.

So, pd sahabat2 bakal guru sekalian, jika anda masih rasa yg anda x layak jd cikgu, cuba ambil masa muhasabah diri. renung2kn apa yg dah terjadi dlu, pasti anda akan temui petanda2 yg sbnrnya anda memang seorng guru. setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya. wallahua'lam.

I'm new

This is my first time involving in this blogging field. I do not know much about blogging but I believe it is a new challenge for me. Basically, this blog was created just for my personal use. It would be my platform in recording anything significant in my life. It could also be merely about my feelings about anything or even more educationally, reflective writing about something happens around me. I have many ideas in my mind but the thing is I do not know how to express them all. Writing might be the medium I'm looking for all this while. It is also hoped that I can improve my writing skills both in Malay and English via blogging. It would also be nice if someone else reads my blog and gains benefits from it. I love to share and one way of sharing is by spreading any knowledge I have. It does not necessarily be formal knowledge but I believe the best learning resource is experience. We can learn from own experience or from others' experience. Therefore, let us share whatever we have and spread the knowledge with others. 'Sharing is caring'.