Sampaikan pada Sang Mujahid!!

Assalamualaikum..

lama benar dibiarkan blog ni berhabuk dan bersawang..sibuk berjaulah..balik berjaulah,sibuk pula dgn sem baru..kemudian sibuk pula dgn assignment2 baru..alhamdulillah, skrg baru berkesempatan utk menjenguk dan 'berkarya'..

terimalah 1 karya yg x seberapa..saje2 tulis lps hbis selesaikan assignment td..semoga bermanfaat..

Sampaikan pada Sang Mujahid....

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Dengarlah mujahidku dengarlah..
Kuberniat ingin menjadi tulng blakang perjuanganmu..
Kuberikrar utk menjadi pembakar semngt juangmu..
Kuberhasrat utk mencontohi Siti Khadijah yg mnyelubungi Rasulullah ketika ketakutan sewaktu dikunjungi Jibril..
Tetapi ku tersilap..
Aku lupa akan janji syaitan..
Berjanji utk menyesatkan kaum manusia spnjg zaman..
Ditempelnya manusia dgn lumpur2 hitam dan lumut2 hijau..
Dibungkusnya segala lumpuran ini dgn bungkusan yg serba indah..

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Kita telah tersilap caturan selama ini..
Kita sangka cinta kita suci bilamana tiada istilah bersntuhan tgn dan berpelukan..
Tanpa kita sedari sedikit demi sedikit syaitan menyelitkan godaan halus berbentuk zina hati..

Sampaikan pada sang mujahid,
Aku lupa bahawa seorang wanita itu mampu menjadi fitnah terbesar seorg lelaki..
Aku lupa bahawa dgn hanya lirikan mataku, jiwa lelakimu bisa bergoncang..
Aku lupa bahawa dgn kelembutan sifat kewanitaan, bisa mnarik mu ke lembah hina..
Aku lupa bahawa dgn kelunakan suaraku, hati lelakimu bergetar hebat..

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Maafkan aku kerana telah membuatkn seorg mujahid tersungkur di medan perang..
Maafkan aku krn telah merantai besi kaki dan tangan seorang pejuang islam dr bangun menyelamatkan umat..
Maafkan aku krn telah menggodamu tanpa kusedari..

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Bangkitlah mujahidku bangkitlah..
Bangkit dr tidur lenamu..
Bangkit dari mimpi2 indahmu..

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Sedarlah mujahidku sedarlah..
Kita punya tanggungjawab besar..
Kita punya impian menggunung..
Kau ingin menjadi mujahid di sana..
Aku ingin menjadi mujahidah di sini..
Namun, mana mungkin kita kecapinya,
Bilamana kita terikat dlm dunia dongengan ini..

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Lepaskan mujahidku lepaskan..
Lepaskan satu per satu bebanan di bahumu..
Kita sdg mendaki bukit yg tinggi lg curam..
Mana mungkin kita mampu menaklukinya,
bilamana di bahu kita terikat bebanan yg maha berat..

Sampaikan pada sang mujahid,
Bertindaklah mujahidku bertindaklah..
Pecahkan berhala2 di hatimu itu..
Sblm engkau memecah berhala2 di sekelilingmu..

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Ingatlah mujahidku ingatlah..
Jgn pernah kau berpaling ke belakang mencari aku..
Kerana ku khuatiri…
Aku akn mnarik kau kembali bergelumang dlm lumpur ini..
Jgn juga engkau menoleh ke sisimu..
Kerana dikhuatiri kau akn sekali lg tergoda spt dahulu..
dgn fitnah2 duniawi yg smakin mencabar..
Butakan dulu matamu..
Pekakkan dulu telingamu..
Kerana apa??
Akan ada bidadari yg sedang menunggumu di hujung sana..

Sampaikan pada sang mujahid,
Berjanjilah mujahidku berjanjilah..
Perpisahan kita bukan krn benci..
Perpisahan kita bukan krn insan lain..
Perpisahan kita hanya kerna cinta sebenar..
Perpisahan kita hanya kerna cinta hakiki..
Perpisahan kita hanya kerna cinta yang satu..
Perpisahan kita hanya kerana cinta Ilahi..

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Berjuanglah mujahidku berjuanglah..
Berjuang menyelamat diri kita..
Berjuang menyelamat keluarga kita..
Berjuang menyelamatkan sahabat kita..
Berjuang menyelamat umat manusia..

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Larilah mujahidku larilah..
Larilah engkau sekencang larian kuda perang..
Pergilah engkau ke medan perang..
Aku membebaskanmu..
Aku melepaskanmu..

Sampaikan pd sang mujahid,
Sabarlah mujahidku sabarlah..
Akan ada bidadari yg sedang menunggumu di hujung sana..
Bidadari yg jauh lebih cantik..
Bidadari yg jauh lebih indah..
Bidadari yg jauh lebih bersih..
Bidadari yg jauh lebih suci..

Holidayzz..

Yeay, officially, my holiday started last Friday after handed in my last assignment~ hooray..hihi.. so, what's my plan??

hmmmm,my housemate suggested us to work as fruit pickers..sounds interesting, but then,after giving it a 2nd thought, it's not really worth it..about $100 per day, but then, have to minus some for accommodation,transportation etc..to add on, i'm gonna travel to sydney and melbourne in few weeks time, so let us give to those who really need it for now.indeed, there are many other programmes lining up for me..

so, not working..what am I gonna do this whole holiday?? from 28/5 till 18/6..it's a long holiday i guess

Last Saturday, my housemates and I had planned to go to Movie World, Gold Coast. but then, it happened that I was not feeling well..so, they went without me..it's ok, indeed i've been there with my sister last autumn holiday..most important thing is to make myself better first..

then,last Sunday, as usual, KAFA class.. but this time, things were getting easier..i'm not sure why..everything seemed to be well-organized and the children were well-behaved most of the time..may be because quite a number of students were absent, so, easier to handle, or maybe because it's winter and it's cold, means no mood to be naughty..haha..or may be, we, the teachers were already 'imuned' to their mischievous,so there's nothing surprising..haha..i have no idea..but whatever it is, thanks to Allah for everything..

And here come Monday...having fun hanging out with my housemates at the city..went to Satay Club to eat Malaysian Food..what a blast..I ate Nasi Ramen~ coconut rice with beef rendang and sambal telur..my friends ate laksa itik, char kuew tiaw, chicken soup...hoho..marvellous..i've actually planned to snap a few photos of the dishes, but sorry guys, once the meal arrived, nothing else could bother us, it's like they were yelling at us, to put them right into our stomach...alhamdulillah..

then, on the way back, we dropped by at the BORDERS..wow,i'm lost in it..every book were calling at me..hoho..but then, it's getting dark, and we definitely didn't want to miss our Maghrib prayer because of books..therefore, we just made a quick survey, marked several interesting books and listed them down in our mind...why??..we need a plenty of leisure time to be able to choose which book to buy ok..and guess what?? we planned to come again to this 'wonderland' tomorrow...

so,that's what i'm gonna do today..'revisit' the wonderland..and to make it a leisure, without having to worry about our prayer time, we gonna go at the earliest time a shop would open..hehe...

then, after Asar, my 'usrah'mates and I will go to our naqibah's house to accompany her..as she's alone without her housemates.. hihi..we'll sleep there about 2 nights..must be wonderful, she has a 'present' for us..guess what?? there's no more valuable present one could give other than knowledge..hihi..she said something about 'sirah'..all the Islam wars.. badar, uhud etc. she said she'll tell us how we can remember all these stories easily..how??..let us see then...we also gonna start planning our trip to sydney and Melbourne there..of course,it's a trip and we wanna have fun there..but, it would be more meaningful if we could plan activities that differentiates usual trip with meaningful Islamic trips..what's the differences?? we'll find out later on from our discussion then..hihi..and the most interesting part would be, this visit will definitely strengthen our sisterhood..we gonna cook together..sleep together..and insyaallah, qiam and conduct usrah together..from the feedback of conducting previous usrah after qiam and subuh prayer, it's awesome..so,why don't we do it again right??

then, on 12/6, my ustazahs (mama rafeah,ustzh faezah and pn. marina) will be coming here..hehe..i've given mama rafaeh my contact number if there's anything I can help..and she said she'll call me once they arrive..they wanna visit us..and what are we gonna do??..my friends suggest a BBQ..hmmmmm,interesting..but then, i'm gonna have to ask them when they will be free as they'll be under travel agency and we know how pack their schedule would be..but then, whatever it is, we'll try to figure it out then..

and alhamdulillah, on 21/6, another ustaz from Malaysia, ustaz Halim will be coming here..so,what a waste if we do not take the advantages right?? therefore, we gonna plan a kuliyyah for all of us here..insyaallah..

ok, before i stop writing on this post, i wanna share few tips when planning our holiday..

1) first and foremost, make sure that we have the right intention (niat).. it can differentiate either an action is an 'ibadah' or just a usual activity based on niat

2) whatever, whenever, wherever it is,make sure u never leave your solat

3) as possible as u can, try to do something that is meaningful, means that it benefits u, or even better, it benefits others..

ok, i think that's all for now..have something else to do..so,to those who have 'activated' the holiday mode, happy holiday..and use your time wisely (^__^)

Let us REFLECT..

alhamdulillah..sedar x sedar, da hbis da 1 sem sya study kat sini..da stat cuti~yeay..mcm2 pngalmn dpt spjg tmpoh 1 sem ni..tp sgtlah rugi bg kita klau sgala yg berlaku x dpt buat kta duduk dan berfikir..so,kat sini sya nk reflect sdaya mampu apa yg da trjadi spjg 1 sem ni..basically,entry ni akn dbahagi kpd 2..kali ni,sya juz nk sntuh from academic aspect..insyaallah,jika diizinkn Allah,next entry sya akn share reflection utk non-academic plak..jom3...

citer psl academic..x lari la drpd asgnmnts kn..nama pn studnts,so jom kita reflect 1 persatu asgnmnt spjg 1 sem..

1)EDB oo6 Learning Network(1st assignmnt)

- utk 1st asgnmnt ni, kami kna design 3 persona(cikgu,murid n parents)5 years from now.so,basically kna jd imaginative utk 'buat' org masa hdpn..kna tgk cmna diorg ni depend on technology..then,lps kna wat essay utk dscribe,kna create 3 image yg gmbrkn persona design kita tu..hmmm,mnarik x??scara trg2,kita nmpk btapa asgnmnt ni nk bg kta jd kreatif n imaginatif..but then,cmne dgn underlying meanings??hmmm,actually,bnda ni sbnrnya bg kita gmbaran situasi yg kita akn hadapi bila jd cg nnti..klau buat cg tu,basically tu adlh kita 5 years from now,yg buat ttg stdnts,tu la bkal2 stdnt kita,n ttg parents,tu la future parents yg kita akn hadapi nnti..so,bg sya yg xbpe minat technology ni,1 bnda yg sya bljr,wlaupn xminat,sya kna minatkn gak sbb tu la 'world' yg akn sya hadapi wkt jd cg nnti..


ni la gmbr utk my 1st persona design..thanks to angah sbb byk mmbntu mngajar cara guna photoshop pd adikmu yg blur ni..

2)CLB452 Media Literacy and The School (1st assignmnt)

-assignmnt ni plak,kami kna pilih shots dr 1 movie kanak2 utk dianalyse.sya amik citer 'BOLT'..yg pasal superhero anjing tu..dr shot yg diambil,kna analyse 'media lnguage' dia(camera angle,setting,camera shot etc.)..then relate dgn 'represntation' yg shot tu cuba smpaikn..da tu,kna relate plak dgn effectiveness towards 'target audience'..children..awl2 wkt wat asgnmnt ni,pikir tah pape jer la nk buat bnda ni,bkn nk jd media analyst pn..tp teeeeeeetttttt..sya silap..bnda ni pntg,sbb zmn skrg ni media plays vital role..as future teachers,kita kna ajar bdk2 nk 'baca' media scara betul..so,diorg blh la wat judgmnt yg tepat sndri..cth,diorg blh tgk yg actually dr kartun pn blh blajr,value of friendship,stereotypng etc...so,jgn la marah bdk2 klau diorg tgk kartun,slalunya ade jer values yg dselitkn tu,tp kita kna pndai 'baca' la..


ni cth 1 shot yg sya analyse..ha,ape kite blh tgk dr shot ni?? nmpk x msg 'loyalty' kt sini??renung2kn..

3)CLB320 Studies In Language (1st assignmnt)

-utk asgnmnt ni, kami kna pilih 1 advertisemnt, yg ade words la..from that,kna analyse word by word..tgk effectiveness words yg dgunakn..advrtisemnt pn ade underlying meaning..prasan x yg kdg2 kita blh terkesan dgn sst iklan bila kita baca caption die??tu la the POWER OF WORDS..hnya dgn words,kita da blh detect mood yg cuba dsmpaikn..cuba try bace mane2 iklan skrg,tgk btul ke x..hihi..as future teacher,bnda ni sgt la bguna..sbbnya,kita nnti kna pilih text n material utk stdnts kn??before bg tu,kite patut tgk dlu text nya,n make sure text yg dgunakn sesuai n tlg kita smpaikn intended msg..ha,pnting kn??

4)EDB350 English for Teachers (1st assignmnt)

-ha,ni satu2nya asgnmnt in groups,presntation..grup sya buat ttg IRE & IRF..tau x ape tu? Initiative-Respond-Evaluative(IRE)& Initiative-Respond-Feedback(IRF)..ha,ape ni??ni adlh interaction dlm kels..prasan x klau dlm kls dlu, cg2 slalu bg soaln, pastu stdnts respond..dr respond tu cg akn buat sama ade evaluate (good,yes,right,no,wrong)..klau x pn, bg feedback (komen jwpn ke,huraikn respond tu ke or tnya soaln bkaitn dgn respond bdk tu)..ha,ni la IRE & IRF..dr sini sya blajar yg actually, cara cg bg 'E' or 'F' tu sgt mmpengaruhi respond students strusnya..so,sya blajar "sila take note on ur feedback to others' opinions"..da siap presnt,biasala kna wat reflection..ha,ni mmg sya suka..mmg suka wat reflection..mcm2 la yg sya reflect smpai trpksa buang sikit sbb pjg sgt words..huhu..

ok,basically tu 1st round asgnmnts bg semua sbjk..jm tgk 2nd round plak..

1)CLB320 Studies in language (2nd assessment)

-ok,ni satu2nya yg ade test..mnarik test ni..utk 2nd part,kami kna compare 2 classroom transcripts..tp 1st transcript da dberi 1 mngu awl..blh prepare awl2 n tulis la byk mana pn note ttg transcript tu kt ats paper tu..best x??haha..yg xbestnya,dpt 2nd transcript wkt test tu..then,stat la mngcompare..utk 1st part plak,die bg 10 key concepts then kna pilih 6 key concepts n trgkn ape yg kita tau..nk tau ape yg mncabar??dsebabkn tlh terbiasa wat asgnmnts yg beribu2 words,sgt la mncabar utk pendekkn words utk jd 1 prenggan je bg stiap key concepts..huh,pelik2..then,stlah skian lamanya xmenulis esei mngunakn pen dan krtas,jdlah ia sgt mncabar..aduhai,bdk2 kecil tulis lg cntik tulisannya..so,ape sya dpt??..sila back to basic juga..biasa2kn la mnulis,jgn mnekn keyboard je..da jd cg nnti,nk kna mnulis kt board jugak kn? *__*

2)CLB452 Media Literacy and The School (2nd assignmnt)

-ha,asgnmnt ni ade 2 part,1st part kna tulis surt kat guru besar..bg rational knapa kita patut jdkan media literacy sbg 1 sbjek dlm skolah..so,trpaksa la buat sikit kajian ttg polisi2 yg sedia ade kt mlysia..ha,dr sini la sya btul2 faham ttg Smart School..*jakun seketika*..then,kna buat 2 lesson plans utk mngajar media dlm kelas..bkn skadar integrated sbjct,tp sbg 1 sbjk teras..best..overall,dpt sya simpulkn yg Mlysia da ada inisiatif ke arah 'techno-world' ni..tp msih byk lg ruang yg blh dperbaiki..mybe kita blh adapt ngara2 mcm Australia ni..sbb diorg da ada da sbjct media dlm curriculum die..ha,mybe nnti kita blh kumplkn semua surat2 dr 58org dr batch sya ni n try bg pd Kmntrian Pelajaran..rational perlunya sbjk ni..*bercita-cita tinggi ke??* but who knows..impossible is nothing ok..


ni cth gmbr sya masuk dlm lesson plan.. surh budk2 try 'baca' apa mesej die..

3)EDB350 English for Teachers (2nd assignmnt)

-ok,ni antara asgnmnt yg pling berat bg sya..basically,kami kna buat case study ttg 2nd lnguage learner..kna pilih ape2 topik bkaitn dgn 2nd lnguage learner,intrview 1 org,n tulis paper ttg bda tu..ok,sya pilih tjuk Critical Period Hypothesis(CPH)..teory ttg effect of age in lnguage learning..die ckp yg mkin tua,mkin susah nk bljr lnguage n slalunya akn 'fail'..so,sya nk go against theory ni dgn intrview 1 prson yg blajar Arab stat da dewasa..aduhai,sya pn xtau nape sya pilih tjuk ni awl2..konon2 mcm mnarik,rujuk lcturers diorg sgt suke..but then,mkin byk readings and researches yg dbuat,trasa sgt la mcabar..sbb die byk kaitnnya dgn neurobiological aspect..ha,ape tu??haha..sgtla sush bila nk buat literature review utk basically summarize ttg research2 or pndpt2 scholars ttg isu ni..ye la,nk memahamkn da 1 hal,nk kna summarize 1 hal plak..tp alhamdulillah,semua da slesai..dr readings yg dbuat,sya simpulkn yg yer,CPH main pranan tp xmustahil utk org2 dewasa utk blajar sbb ade byk faktor lain yg mndorong spt motivation n cognitive maturity..so,jom perkayakn bhasa kita (^__^)

4) EDB006 Learning Network (2nd asignmnt)

-finally,ni la pnutup asgnmnts sem ni..tp blm hntr pn lg..xbuat pn lg..so,xtau nk reflect cmne..hihi..apepn,kami kna create device or pape je utk dgunakn dlm classroom 10thn dr skrg..aduhai,pikir masa dpn lg..da describe ttg bnda tu,kami kna buat video pndek ttg bnda tu..huh,mncbr..sgt mncbr..ade sesiapa nk tlg??hihi

ok,basically ni la asgnmnts spjg sem ni..honestly,wkt buat sgt la payah..tp bila da slesai,rasa sgt la best..mcm2 bnda da blajar rupanya..ni sumer directly..tp dlm proses tu ade gak bnda len yg sya blajar...

1)assignmnt2 jugak..tngungjwb pd yg 1 jgn dlupakn..insyaallah,dlm ketandusan idea tu,carila ktenangn dr Allah..insyaallah dpermudahkn..wkt berkeluh kesah tu,mngadu la pd Dia..then klau blh bjaga d tgh mlm utk buat asgnmnt,xkn xblh nk mulakn dgn 'date' dgn Dia kn..'date' dlm ksunyian ksepian kedinginan amatlah mngasyikkn (^^)

2)minta la restu n doa dr ibu slalu..dlu sya ada tulis entry ttg indahnya redha doa seorg ibu di kala musim asgnmnts ni..

3)we are not alone..ade skali sya hmpir tertewas,tp ramai jer yg bg kata2 smgt dan doa..thanks evrybody..n for sure,thanks Allah for always be here..

4)ni 1 idea dr seorg senior sya (thanks kak Aina)..dia ckp,cari kotak, start la kumpuln pape teaching aids dr skrg..nnti sng bila da mngajar..hmmm,sgt mnarik..sbb mmg byk da materials dpt (lg2 kelas erika)yg blh dgunakn nnti..jm kwn,kita cari kotak, kumpl materials..hihi

okla,cukp la tu..da pnjg lebar..insyaallah,ada umur yg pnjg,kita akn smbung meREFLECT diri yg lemah ini..

p/s:arini angah sya tung..smoga sgalanya bjaln lncar dan brkekln smpai ke prnikahan yg sah nnti..amin..

wallahua'lam..

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Dia sbaik-baik tempat mengadu..

Aduhai ya Allah, lemahnya hamba-Mu ini..berikanlah aku kekuatan utk meneruskn prjuangn di sini..langkahku baru bermula..prjuangan masih pnjg,tp aku spt sudah trsungkur di tengah jln..x mampu mngawal emosi ku sndri..bantulah aku Ya Allah..
ni la hasilnya bila 2 asgnmnts hntr jumaat ni + 1 test esok + sedih x dpt bsama family + faktor2 lain..huhu

to my beloved sis fauziah,
Selamat Bertunang hari Sabtu 29/4 ni yer..hope sgalanya bjalan lncar..smoga prtunangn tu bkekalan disudahi dgn pernikahan yg sah nnti..insyaallah

kpd sesiapa yg da baca entry ni smpai sini, maaf la yer..sbb entry ni x bg manfaat pd sesiapa pn..huhu..

Pengalaman berharga

Alhamdulillah, 2 ari yg berlalu ni terasa amat berharga..bila mana dpt melapangkn masa dan merehatkn diri sbntar dr assignments yg x benti2..

dgn izin Allah,malam jumaat yg lalu, saya berpeluang utk mnghadiri 1 talk conducted by bro Imran Siddiqi, who is inspired by Ahmed Deedat & Dr. Zakir Naik..mereka ni adlh leading speakers dlm bidang comparative religions..

tajuk talk ni adlh: "Allegations around Quran & their clarifications"..di sini, Bro Imran mengetengahkn bebrapa tuduhan yg biasa dibuat brkaitan dgn Islam dan mmbuktikan bhw kesemua tuduhan itu x berasas. sesunnguhnya, amat jitu dan nyata bukti yg ditunjukkn bila kesemua bukti2 diberi berasaskn al-Quran dan hadis.(terpegun melihat keupayaan beliau memetik ayat2 quran dan hadis sbg bukti scara spontan,masyaallah,Allah mngurniakn daya ingatan yg sgt tajam kpd beliau).antara tuduhan2 yg dibuat termasuklah nabi Muhammad menulis al-quran sendiri utk kuasa dan harta,N. Muhammad belajar quran dr seorang non-Muslim bernama Waraqa ibn Naufal, N.Muhammad copy quran dr bible dan mcm2 lg la..lbh mnarik apabila talk ni juga dhadiri oleh non-Mulims dan mereka antara yg rancak bertanya dan alhamdulillah, bro imran tlh mnjwb soaln mereka dgn jitunya berdasarkn dalil2 aqli dan naqli,disokong juga dgn bukti2 saintifik..smoga Allah membuka hati2 mereka utk lbih mngenali Islam yg sbenar dan akhirnya revert kembali ke Islam..

Dan skali lg alhamdulillah bila keesokan harinya, Allah memberi skali lg peluang utk sya lbih mngenali agama sya sendiri,Islam skaligus mmbakar smngt sya utk berdakwah slps mnhadiri 1 Day-Long Masterful Dakwah Training Course by bro Imran (berada di negara org,lbih2 lg ngara non-muslims ni,pngetahuan ttg ini sgt perlu..sbbnya da berapa kali juga sya dtanya oleh rakan2 australians ttg Islam,xkirala prtanyaan itu dtujukn utk mngenali ttg islam atau mnguji kita,kita bersangka baiklah yg mereka nk mngenali Islam..smoga dgn explanation yg betul,merka dpt mlihat keindahan islam itu)

wlaupun pd permulaannya sya agak x slesa dgn rules yg ditetapkan spjg course ni(no note taking, no drinking, no going out during session), tp alhamdulillah, ianya berkesan apabila spenuh konsentrasi dpt diberi terhadap pnyampaiannya..

session ni terbahagi kpd bebrapa session iaitu:
1) introduction to major religions of the world
2) introduction to major religious scriptures
3) concept of God in world's major religions
4) Muhammad (s) in world's major religions
5) concept of marriage and divorce in Islam
6) answering few allegations against Islam

wlaupun session terakhir x dpt dijlnkn krn kekurangan masa, tp insyaallah 5 sessions yg dpt dhabiskn tlh byk sgt3 mmberi input..sya juga akn mndaftar di laman web hikmahway di mana sya akn mndpt nota2 bg tajk2 spjg course ini (sbb tu kami xdbenarkn note taking,sbb nk bg fokus,notes blh diambil nnti)..

secara keseluruhannya, ni la pngalaman yg bermakna 2 hari ni..tp apalah gunanya sya ke talk dan course dakwah tu jika hanya mampu share pngalamn yg x sebrapa ni kn?? insyaallah, sya akan cuba share sdaya mampu ttg input2 yg sya peroleh dr talk dan course ini..tp sbg insan yg lemah daya ingatannya,lg2 bila xmampu mncatat apa2,sya perlukn masa utk mmbuat sedikit homework sblm dishare brsama yg lain..insyaallah,smoga dipermudahkn...


*hari ni akan lalui 1 lg hari yg bermakna sbb nk gi mngajar kelas KAFA utk adik2 yg comel2 kat sini...cpt betul masa berlalu,rupa2nya da sebuln da sya mngajar kelas KAFA nie..alhamdulillah..

*balik je mngajar kena pulun la buat assignments stlh 'bercuti' ni..insyaallah smoga Allah permudahkn..

Bila nak ingat Allah??

Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah..

smlm, kami semua di sini da dpt ELAUN..best, mmg best..sape yg x suke dpt duit kn??but still, ade bbrapa prkara yg patut kite amik prhatian..

pendek kata cmnila..kita tgk situasa sblm dan slps.....

ape jd sblm dpt elaun tu??

ramai yg bising2..'bila nk dpt elaun??'..'aku da pokai ni'..'bila en.zul nk msuk duit ni?'..mcm2 la keluh kesah yg dpt didgr..

pastu ape plak jd lepas dpt elaun??

i'm not sure apa jd kat yg lain2..tp ni ape yg jd skelilng aku..brita ni gempak wkt dlm kels erika smlm..wkt tgh rehat..haha..hbis rata2 jd excited..semua kcnggihan tknologi d gunakn sbaiknya..yg bwk laptop..yg ade iphone..trus check account..
then,mnjerit tnda kgmbiraan..ade yg trus bkira2 nk buat ape da dgn duit tu..mcm2 plan pn ade..'ha,blh la enjoy,duit da msuk'..'mkn besar la kita arini'..bla..bla..bla..haha,bukn aku salahkn semua tu..mmg,semua happy dpt duit tu..tp jom kita pikir kejap.....

bila x dpt duit, kita sibuk berkeluh kesah,salahkn sesiapa yg bkenaan....
bila da dpt duit plak, kita sibuk brgembira,plan masa hdpn.....

tp 1 bnda yg kita tertinggal...bila masa plak nk sibukkn diri utk ingat Allah??hmmmm, tu yg mnjadi tanda tanya di sini..

so,kwn2...marila kita bramai2 ucapkn alhamdulillah..x kisah dlm sush or dlm senang..dlm sedih dan dlm gembira..btapa manisnya hidup jika semuanya dpt dikaitkn dgn Allah..

Allah is the best planner..stiap yg trjadi ada hkmahnya..brangkali juga sbg ujian buat kita...

wkt susah, ujian nk tgk tahap ksabaran kita..wkt sng pn,blh jd 1 ujian..ujian nk tgk tahap mana kita bsyukur..

so,mari kita renung2kn..kita lps x ujian dr Allah nie??

hmmmmmm,post ni x dtujukn pd sesiapa scara spesifik..ianya dtujukn kpd semua scara umum..trmasuk diri si pnulis yg juga lmah nie..sbbnya,ni la situasi yg dialami sndri..bila da blaku semuanya,bru trduduk memuhasabah diri..trima kasih Allah ats ingtn buat hamba-Mu yg lemah ini..

wallahua'lam

*jom gi lcture Learning Network...gi kelas ni amanah tau..duit da dpt,amanah kna la pikul..mmg malas nk g awl2 pg nie..tp still,jom laksanakn amanah dr rakyat malaysia ni..n yg pasti, jom laksanakn amanah dr Allah ni..betulkn niat,g lcture krn Allah..jom3..

owh fire alarm !!!!

aduhai..gemuruh di hati msih ada lg nie..cuak..mmg cuak..

wahai hati,tlg la bertenang..da lepas da tu..semua da ok da skrg..huhu..

ok semua...meh aku citer ape jd sbnrnya..tp sblum tu,tarik nafas dlm2 dlu farah..xde ape2 da ni..

cmni ceritanya............

al-kisah, kira2 pkl 6 ptg tadi,aku pn memulakn rutin harian utk memasak di dapur..maka start la dikeluarkn brg2 utk dimasak..smbil tu otak ligat pikir nk masak apa arini..tgk dlm sinki,housemate aku da rendam ayam..maka ayam la yg aku akan masak..so,decide la nk msk ayam masak kurma..ok,tgk sayur plak..hmmmm,ade so'on(cmni ke eja die ek??), ade tahu kering,ade kentang..ok la,msk syur air best gak ni..maka bermula la projek aku..masak nasi,kupas kulit kentang,potong ayam,rendam so'on dgn tauhu kering,rebus kentang...ok,semua preparation da siap,tinggal masak je la...

maka di switch on la hot plate..pastu penyedut asap kt ats dapur tu pn di switch on..so,start la aku memasak ayam dgn sng hatinya..semua bhn2 dicampak sesuka ati ke dlm periuk..tup2,ha da siap da..rasa la sikit..hmmmm,blh la..ade la rase kuah kurma..ok set,lepas 1 lauk..

so nk start plak msk sayur..hmmmm,tgh sejuk2 ni best kalau blh hirup2 kuah sayur ni..so,kena masak dlm bekas yg bernama periuk..tp,aduhai malasnya nk basuh periuk masak aym td tu..huhu..pakai je la 1 periuk lg ni..before ni x prnh pn guna periuk tu utk msk ats dapur,slalu guna utk msuk dlm microwave jer..pdhal tgk gaya periuk tu da tau yg die x sesuai sgt guna letak ats dapur tu..tp x pela,blm cuba blm tau..

ok 1st step masak syur,tumis la kn..minyak da panas,ape lg,masuk la bhn2 utk ditumis..so far so good.......until...









TIBA-TIBA..

















keluar 1 bunyi yg sgt nyaring lg kuat dr smoke detector kat syiling berdektn dapur ni..aduhai...terlebih asap la plak kluar...ape lg,kelam klibut la aku sbb klau dlm masa 30saat bunyi tu x dihentikn,maka abg2 bomba akan smpai lalu terbang la duit $900 kami..aduhai,sensitive bebenor smoke detector nie..huhu..

tanpa mmbuang masa,aku pn mnjerit memanggil bdk2 umah yg lain,wlaupn hakikatnya telinga yg normal pasti dpt dgr jeritan nyaring dr fire alarm nie..maka berlaku la drama di sini..yg sorg terbangkit dr tido scara mngejut,yg sorg brlari keluar dr toilet,yg sorg terpaksa mmbatalkn takbiratul ihram nk stat solat,yg lg sorg tah tgk buat ape dlm bilik..yg bilik di bwh main lgkah 3 ank tngga skali gus,yg di ats brlari2 bwk tlekung utk mngibas asap..semua berlari2 ke dapo utk mmbantu aku..

pd wkt ini,kerjasama semua sgt diperlukn..maka,seorg pn mnekan suis false alarm,seorg mngibas2 smoke detector yg pertama, seorg mmbuka pintu beranda dan terus mgibas2 smoke detector kedua dgn kain tlekung,seorg mngeluarkn fire blanket dan kepung di bhgn punca asap,dan seorg mngibas2 asap di sekitarnya...muka semua sgtla cuak yg teramat..misi kami hanya 1..mnghentikn bunyi fire alarm itu dlm masa 30saat sblm sgala2nya terlmbat..

stelah usaha yg bersusah payah,akhirnya 1st detector yg mngeluarkn bunyi itu akhirnya berhenti..kami mula berasa lega..tetapi hnya sekejap..dan tiba2 2nd detector pula berbunyi..aduhai,bertungkus-lumus la kami mnjalankn tugas kami td..

dan alhamdulillah,mission accomplished..akhirnya bunyi itu dpt dihentikn sblm abg2 bomba dtg melawat kami..huh,kisah cuak yg mngambil masa tidak smpai seminit ini telah mmberi kesan yg sgt besar kpd kami..salah seorg pngipas tegar kami terluka tgnnya dlm usaha mngibas asap..dan yg pasti,tlh meng'activate' jantung kami utk berdetap sekencang larian kuda..lbih2 lg,jntung tukng masak mrangkap pnyebab kekecohan ini..aku la ni..haha..

ok steady,semua da slesai..maka housemate aku sorg ni pn tlg la basuhkn periuk bekas msk aym td tu..then,aku mneruskn utk masak sayur..bajet cool,xde pape hal la..

oh,tidak!!ade kesannya...

impaknya???

haha..takut aku nk masak lama2..so,basically lps je masuk semua2 bhn,cincai2 je la..bru je tgk asap da bkepul sikit ats periuk tu..aku pn terus tutup..haha..maka,xberapa empuk la kentang tu wlaupn da rebus awl2 da pn..nasib la korg yer..hihi..

ha,itulah kisahnyer..story of a minute..hehe

moral of the story : 1) lain kali jgn malas basuh periuk, 2)pastu ape yg penting??kerjasama!!! 3)and last skali,buat semua bnda ingt Allah,bace bismillah,ni tak,main syok sndri je kat dapo tu....huhuhu..

p/s: sori yer my dear housemates ats kekecohan yg brlaku td..hihi..

Indahnya Redha Ibu Bapa

Minggu ni mmg sgt mncabar..perlu brtungkus-lumus utk mnyiapkn 2 asgnment yg due jumaat next week and ada 1 test rabu next week..pndek kata..agak haru-biru gak la kepala ni..bila da byk2 cmni,semua mula la bcampur aduk..tgh pikir ttg EDB350, tiba2 je dpt idea utk CLB452..bila da mngadap CLB452,jam tu la tetiba nk tringt key concepts utk CLB320..pndek kata mmg serabut x terurus..n smlm mmg kmuncaknya..

Dlm keadaan emosi yg x brapa nk stabil, berjam2 dok mngadap laptop,idea tiba2 stuck di tgh jln..punya la bsungguh2 perah otak,1 apa pn x kluar..mmg berjam2 brhabis x buat ape dpn laptop..so,mmg x blh nk buat apa la..stop la dlu..dlm hati byk2 berdoa dpermudahkn sgala urusan oleh Allah..bselawat byk2 mnta djauhkn bisikn syaitan yg xhbis2 memujuk utk brmalas2 di katil yg empuk,mlayan suasana yg smakin mnyejuk ni..aduhai..hmpir2 je tertewas..smakin pnjg la selawat dan doanya..sbb ati rasa x tenang sgt2..x tau la nape..

punya la bsusah payah pikir,akhirnya baru teringt sesuatu..

Rupanya rasa x tenang sbb xdpt dgr suara mama..sbb last time call brapa ari yg lps,line x brapa clear,so trpaksa putuskn talian..huhu..cpt2 la aku call mama time tu jugak..berbual2 mcm lama jer x brbual..mkin lama mkin bkurangan resah di hati..alhamdulillah smakin tenang...

Before tamatkn talian,smpat mngadu pd mama btapa x blh nk buat asgnmnt skrg ni..tiba2 idea mmg xblh nk dtg..da brapa ari da mcm ni..otak agak slow sikit..mybe mkin mmbeku sbb sejuk sgt kot(alasan smata2)..mama bg kata2 pujukn..mcm2 cara dia cdgkn..suruh tnya along or angah la..gi rujuk kak senior la..jgn tido,nnti idea mmg x dtg la..mcm2 lg la..huhu..then,aku minta mama doakn..mama jwb 'mama sntiasa doakn adik'..pastu minta plak mama doakn lg spesifik..'mama doakn ain dpt idea buat asgnmnt ni ekk'..'buntu sgt ni..xtau nape'..mama jwb..'ye,sentiasa doakn'..

Kemudian dpt plak bcakap dgn papa skejap..btanya khabar..papa tanya da mkn ke blm..bila bgtau mcm biasala,skali shari je,tngu ptg..jwpn papa, 'biasa la tu..dkt tmpt org kan..sabar la yer'..huhu..yg lg buat trharu..papa ingtkn aku mmg mkn skali shari sbb x cukup duit kat sini..so,buat ke brapa kalinya lg,papa ckp,'gi la find out mcmana nk transfer duit dr sini ke sana..nnti papa transfer duit'..aduhai,terharunya..tp papa,ni bukn soal xde duit(wlaupn mmg kena bjimat pn kat sini),tp soal x cukup masa n soal mls nk msk byk2 kali..still,dia nk juga surh cari cmna..pdhal blh je pn,aku je yg x nk,insyaallah cukup lg scholarship ni..hmmmmm..smakin btmbh ktenangan di hati lps dgr suara papa pula..alhamdulillah...

Maka lps tu, aku pn mneruskn pjuangn mmbuat asgnmt stlh mndpt sumber kekuatan dr mereka..mama sntiasa mndoakn..papa sngup brsusah2..sbb ape??semestinya,sbb nk tgk aku kuat dan bjaya di sini..

Alhamdulillah, syukur byk2 pd Allah,stlh bebrapa ketika fokus dan berfikir brtungkus-lumus...idea yg dicari-cari dan ditunggu-tunggu akhirnya sampai..bercurah2 lg..laju jari jemariku menekan keyboard..alhamdulillah..

Dan di awal mlm,aku bjaya mnyiapkn 80% dr aim yg spatutnya aku capai utk smlm..memndgkn aku mmg jnis yg tido awl,maka aku mngambil kputusan utk tido dlu..dan berniat utk bjaya di tgh mlm utk mnyiapkn baki 20% spt yg disasarkn..siap kunci alarm handphone lg..

Bila alarm brbunyi......

Aduhai sejuknya..malasnya nk bgn..huhu..15minit lg la..so,mkin dtarik la comforter mnyelubungi diri..

Lps 15 minit alarm brbunyi lg..

Hmmmmm..15minit lg la..xlarat la..xpela,da 80% siap,sikit je lg..mkin bkubang aku di dlm slimut yg warm tu...kali ni mmg sngaja aku x set blik jam tu..nyenyaknya la hai..lbih2 lg bila da dpasang heater utk kurgkn ksejukan mlm....


TIBA-TIBA............





AINNNNN !!!!!!!!!!!!!



Terus aku tersentap..huh,aku terdgr mama panggil aku..berzikir aku di tgh2 mlm tu..apa lg,terus la aku terjaga..

Alhamdulillah,aku diberi peluang utk bngkit di sepertiga mlm yg hening..di kala yg lain sdg enak diulit mimpi..stelah mnunaikn kewajipanku, aku terus smbung mngadap laptop mnyiapkn baki 20% asgnmentku..smbil tu sempat aku teringt pesan mama td..'klau da tido,mcmana idea tu nk dtg'..trsenyum aku smbil mnyambung kerja..


Hmmmmmm..terima kasih mama..terima kasih papa..dan yg pasti,terima kasih Ya Allah..
krn sntiasa ada bersama aku....


Moral of the story : sentiasa la memohon keredhaan dari ibu bapa kerana redha Allah terletak pada redha mereka...

So,pd sesiapa yg bjauhan dr parents tu,slalu2 la contact diorg..klau sngup bhabis kredit utk contact kekasih stiap hari,xkn parents sendri pn x blh kn??huhu...(ayat ni x dtujukn pd sesiapa..utk renungan semua secara umum)

ROALD DAHL.................

Have u ever heard about Roald Dahl?? nope?

what about 'the way up to heaven'?? 'the sound machine'?? or may be 'charlie and the chocolate factory'?? yeay..these are all Roald Dahl's stories..

Roald Dahl - World's No. 1 Storyteller.. especially children's stories..


even though my schedule is pack with never ending assignments, it doesn't mean i'm gonna stop reading..(not sure whether it's good or bad)..and the latest one, i managed to read 1 of Roald Dahl's book "MATILDA"..seriously, i love this book..it took me less than a day to finish reading me..no wonder it managed to win the children's book award..

i'm not good in writing book review..but what i can say,this 'light' story is really cute and interesting..it's about a girl named Matilda..she is an exceptional girl..she's a genius..however, her parents think that she's just a trouble maker..she's the black sheep of the family..it is until she is attacked by her headmistress that she realizes that she has power..

even though there are several unrealistic scenes in this story, it's still acceptable..overall, it's for children and children love imaginative stories..we can also learn several things from this story..it actually demonstrates real life situation.. 'adults vs children'.. adults tend to underestimate children.."the elder you are,the wiser u would be"..children's voices and statements that challenge adults are not to be heard..

as a future teacher, i also learn something from this book..it is my responsibility to be aware of my students' abilities..advanced students are to be noted and necessary actions are to be taken to further develop their abilities...i love Miss Honey's character in this novel..she's a good teacher..yeay..



and here's another thing...


i went to K-Mart Toowong just now to buy winter clothes..indeed, i spent my money at 1 of the bookstores there to buy a Roald Dahl's story collection..without buying any winter clothes...luckily it didn't cost me much..still have money to buy the winter clothes..huhu..i should try to avoid coming near any bookstores after this..but still, NO regret..indeed,i'm gonna collect more books here..hihihi...






*to be a primary school teacher, i have to be and think like the children..reading their books, helps me to understand them better..1 of them..children love imagination..(^______^)


p/s- buat kakak2 ksayanganku haslinda or fauziah, ape kate akak2ku skalian tlg carikn and belikan dulu novel 'cinta sufi' by Ramlee awang Murshid??..nnti I byr blik..huhu..boleh la ekk..luv u (^__^)

Jom Jemaah 3

Alhamdulillah,pada hari ahad,9 Mei yg lalu, barisan naqib/ah telah skali lg berjaya meng'conduct' jom jemaah kali ketiga yg mngumpulkn kesemua plajar muslim TEFL Cohort 1 utk pngisian rohani.spt biasa program ringks yg dimulai dgn solat maghrib bjemaah, diikuti dgn slot pngisian ringkas(kali ni kita berusrah),solat isyak berjemaah dan diakhiri dgn jamuan ringan (xde la ringn sgt pn..pot luck mmg best)ini mndpt feedback yg sgt positif dr rakan2 semua.tq dan thniah semua.so,basically entry ni nk share dgn semua ttg pngisian kami kali ni,usrah.

alhamdulillah,kali ni kami mengupas huraian surah an-Nas.wlaupn surah pendek dan ringkas ini hanya mempunyai 6 ayat sahaja,ternyata byk yg dpt dihuraikn dan insyaallah memberi input yg sgt berguna.masyaallah,hebatnya kekuasaan Allah.

ok la,secara ringkasnya surah ini boleh dibahagikn kpd 2 bhagian: ayat 1-3 menerngkn sifat2 Allah manakala ayat 4-6 pula merungkai ttg syaitan (sifat,tugas dan hakikatnya).ayat 1-3 ada mnyenaraikn sifat2 Allah sbg Rabb(tuhan),Malik(raja) dan Illah(sembahan). ramai yg sukar utk membezakn antara Rabb dan Illah. tuhan dan sembahan.apa bezanya??utk lbh memahaminya, kita blh kaitkn dgn tauhid(ada 3 jenis); rububiyah,uluhiyah dan asma' wa sifat. sifat Allah sbg Rabb blh dikaitkn dgn tauhid Rububiyah dan sifat Allah sbg Illah blh dikaitkn dgn tauhid Uluhiyah.

Tauhid Rububiyah (analogi di tgh lautan)

utk lbh memahami, mari kita lihat analogi di tgh lautan ini. ada seorg pelayar ini hanyut di tgh lautan. sudah habis ikhtiar nk buat apa utk slmtkn diri. tidak kiralah dia muslim atau tidak, akhirnya dia akan minta bantuan dr 1 KUASA utk mmbantunya. 1 KUASA yg mmg dipercayai ada itu adalh sifat Rububiyah Allah. bg yg mmpercayai Allah, tahu bhw kuasa itu adlh Allah tp bg yg x mmpercyai Allah,akn tetap yakin dgn kuasa itu tnpa mnyedari bhw itu adlh kuasa Allah. maka sama ada kita percaya atau tidak dgn Allah, Allah itu tetap tuhan (RAbb) yg satu.

Analogi sebuah negara

lg 1 cntoh analogi utk faham tauhid rububiyah dan uluhiyah adlh analogi sebuah negara. sbg contoh, Malaysia. Kita tahu dan yakin bhw YDP Agong itu adlh ketua negara. Baginda mmg ada kuasa tertinggi dlm negara kita. x kira kita taat atau tidak pd baginda, baginda still Agong kita yg ada kuasa dan kdudukn tertinggi dlm negara.
ini adlh cnth tauhid rububiyah, sama ada kita percaya atau tidak dgn Allah, Dia tetap Tuhan yg memiliki kuasa terhebat.

Dari golongn rakyat pula, pasti ada sekumpulan yg mentaati Agong itu. bg mereka yg mentaatinya, pasti akan diikut segala yg dperintahkn dan meninggalkn apa yg dlarang. dlm konteks ini, mematuhi undng2 ngara. ini pula adlh cnth tauhid uluhiyah.bagi mereka yg percaya dgn sifat Allah sbg Illah(sembahan), mereka akan buat segala perintah Allah dan tinggalkn segala larangannya. hanya Allah yg mereka sembah.

Pendek kata, Rabb adlh hubgn atas ke bwh manakala Illah adlh hbgn bwh ke atas.

utk tauhid asma wa sifat pula, agak mudah utk d fahami. kita sedia maklum, Allah memiliki sifat2 yg x dmiliki oleh makhluk2nya. sbg contoh, Maha Mendengar.wlaupn ada segelintir yg kata, manusia pn blh mendengar juga. di sini, kita perlu tahu mmbezakn keupayaan sifat mendengar manusia itu dgn sifat Maha Mendengar Allah. manusia memerlukan gegendang telinga, hanya blh mndgr dr jarak tertentu dan dgn kekuatan bunyi tertentu.berbeza pula dgn Allah yg Maha Mendengar tanpa memerlukn sbrang medium, pd bila2 masa tanpa jarak tertentu, dan kekuatan bunyi tertentu,even suara hati kita pn Allah blh dgr. Allahu Akbar.besarnya kekuasaan Allah.

Ayat 4-6 surah ini pula membicarakn ttg syaitan:sifat syaitan yg tenggelam timbul, tugas syaitn yg membisikkan kejahatan dan hakikat syaitan yg terdiri drpd jin dan manusia.

alhamdulillah, secara peribadi kumpln sya mmberi feedback yg sgt positif dlm berkongsi ilmu dlm usrah kali ini.masing2 sgt bersemangt sehinggakn terasa tempoh yg deruntukkn x mncukupi.masing2 aktif mendengar, memberi respon dan bertanyakn soaln spjg diskusi.sya juga mndpt feedback yg sama dr naqib/ah yg lain.alhamdulillah,dgn sokongn padu,kami barisan naqib/ah akn cuba mmpelbagaikn lg aktiviti dn pengisian rohani utk santapan rohani kita bersama.insyaallah

p/s- pd kumpln usrah sya, insyaallah sya akn cuba mnjwb soaln2 terbngkalai mlalui emel stlh mmbuat rujukn pd yg lbh tahu..(eg. apa beza jin,iblis n syaitan.. then manusia dr tanah, syatan dr api, so haiwan dr apa??)..klau rajin try la cari (^___^)

* best sgt mknn2 yg dhidngkn..mmg semua bdk2 cohort 1 da blh kahwin la..ada bubur lambok,spageti & pasta, roti jala & kuah kari, nasi himpit & kuah kacang, bergedil, roti canai, puding, cekodok & nasi goreng serta pizza. alhamdulillah, sedap2 semua..nyumm2..

akhir kata, utk renungan bersama..BACAlah..FAHAMIlah..HAYATIlah..dan AMALkanlah ayat2 al-Quran..

MAMA ...

you are always there mama...

you are there when i'm happy...

you are there when i'm sad...

you are there when i'm scared..

you are there when i'm sick...

you are there when i'm hurt..

you are there anytime i need you..


forgive me mama...

forgive me for being rude..

forgive me for being naughty..

forgive me for using high rising voice...

forgive me for disobeying you..

forgive me for making you worried..

forgive me for making you sad...

forgive me for making you cry...

forgive me for not making you proud..

forgive me for not being a good daughter..

forgive be for not being perfect...

forgive me for everything mama..


you are everything mama..

you are my sunshine..

you are my rainbow..

you are my gold..

you are my diamond..

you are my heart...

you are my soul...

you are worth than anything in this world...



thank you mama..

thank you mama for carrying me 9 months in your womb..

thank you mama for taking the risk to deliver me..

thank you mama for struggling to give me chance to see the world..

thank you mama for spending your time to teach me how to walk and talk...

thank you mama for scolding me when i make mistakes..

thank you mama for sacrificing your nights to look after me when i'm sick..

thank you mama for praying days and nights for me..

thank you mama for your hardship and your tears for me...

thank you mama for everything you've done for me..


I want you...

I want you to always be healthy..

I want you to always be happy..

I want you to always pray for me..

I want you to always be proud of me..

I want you to be beside me all the time..

I want YOU mama...


You are my everything..

you are my doctor..

you are my nurse..

you are my teacher..

you are my friend..

you are my guidance..

you are my soul mate..

more importantly, you are my MOTHER...

the best MAMA ever...



this poem was created and dedicated specially for my mama, RODZIAH MUSTAPHA..
everyday is mother's day..happy mother's day mama..thank you and sorry for everything..

sorry for not giving you present...but that is because there's no present in this world that is worth your love, doa, smile, tears and YOU yourself.. i love you mama

*papa don't be sad.. i'll create another poem for you then..both of you are the most precious people in this world..love both of you (^__________^)


your daughter,
farahin @ ain @ adik

alhamdulillah..

alhamdullillah..i've finished my another assignment..the presentation...and now having to write a reflection on that..but then, 1 assignment goes, many assignments c0me..4 assignments lining up..and 1 exam coming on..waiting to be treated by me..all in less than 5 weeks..huarghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

and in the middle of nowhere..my head feels like bursting..serious headache..thinking about the assignments??..i don't think so..hihi..planning on pampering myself on this comfortable bed..covered myself with this newly-bought quilt..and heating up the room with another newly-bought item~the heater..hmmmmmmm...i think there's nothing wrong to treat myself after pushing it too much for the assignment..and the cool air here seems to agree with me..yeay~

but then, who's gonna cook tonight?? seems like the another chef is also not feeling well...how i wish mama's here right now..miss her cook..huhu..yup, i think my housemates gonna have to fast tonight as i'm seriously not in the mood of cooking..assignment and cooking mode deactivated 'for a while'..sorry u guyz..

life is not easy especially when we're far from those we love (my family of course)..full of tests that we sometime feel like incapable of facing it..but then, just remember Allah's promise.. "Allah tidak akan membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dgn kesanggupannya (kemampuannya)" (al-Baqarah:286)..assignments and headache are nothing compared to all the hardworks faced by our prophet Muhammad..so, no matter in happiness..in sadness..in hardship..say alhamdulillah....


*i'm thinking of buying tafsir Quran in English.. must be nice (^____^)

Assignments mode motivated ~

Tomorrow gonna be one of my "BIG" days..yeay..assignment for EDB350.. presentation on the topic IRF as effective communication practices in the classroom.. not really sure why, I don't think that I'm nervous as usual..maybe the 'nervousness' will come tomorrow..but I prefer it to be like this.. we had practiced several times, concerning about the time management..overall, everything is under control..however, we plan..Allah also plans..but Allah is the best planner ever.. when everything has been prepared, just leave it to Allah..He will always be with us..tomorrow I will also collect the result for my first CLB452 assignment..not prepared to know the result today..i'm afraid that it would effect my presentation preparation for tomorrow..so, will then take it tomorrow after my presentation..huaaaaaaaaaaa..

*pray for me..for the presentation and also for the assignment result (^___^)

Seriously, I'm a TEACHER..

Smlm ari kedua saya mngajar kelas KAFA. mngajar students kira2 umur 4 thun smpai 12 thun..siapa kata mngajar tu mudah???? mmg silap besar la pnyataan tu.. u shud try before coming out with that statement..blm cuba, blm tau..hihi..mcm2 cabarannya..

1st nya cabaran mngajar budak2 kecil yg msuk tadika pn blm..hihi..ade sorg cute little girl ni..4 thun..smpai2 je nangis bila mummy dia nk tinggalkn..huh..1 hal pula nk memujuknya..bila part2 kena pujuk bdk2 mnangis je, my teaching team mates semua mmg x de kerja lain, msti disorongkan pd saya..entahla..mybe sbb ada 2 kmungkinan: prtama, sbb saya pn mcm bdk2, so blh 'masuk' dgn diorg cpt.. or kedua, saya ade wajah seorg ibu yg memahami cara nk pujuk bdk2 ni..(but i prefer the 1st one)..hihi..tp x pe,saya suka bab2 ni,x terasa mmbebankn pn..bukn sng nak pujuk bdk2 mnangis ni..lg2 bila tngisan tu brjangkit..mcm smlm la..bila sorg ni da nangis, kwn dia (pn 4 thn gak) pn nk nangis gak..mcm nk wat nangis berirama plak..hihi..bukn sng nk pujuk bdk2 ni..kna berfikir pantas n kreatif on the spot gak..nk kena cari idea yg 'masuk' dgn mereka..sbb mereka rasa x secured..kita kna buat mereka rasa secured n comfortable..cthnya la, smlm bila tanya 'do you like to learn?', tanpa fikir pnjg dia jwb 'no',then bila tanya 'do u like to draw?', dgn yakin jwb 'no'.. pastu try plak 'do you like to play?', dgn cpt dia jwb 'no'..aduhai..mati kutu saya wkt tu..nsib baik Allah bg ilham yg lain plak..trus ckp cmni..'i have something to show u..but before that, u have to stop crying 1st'..bdk2 mmg suka surprise2 ni..so,dia da mula slow, tp still muka nk nangis..cpt2 la saya keluarkn laptop,pdhal wkt tu x da idea pn nk tnjukkn apa..tp keluar je la kn..last2 tnjukkn dia gambr2 dkt gold coast dlu..gmbr kangaroo..gmbr koala..hmmm,last2 stop pn mereka mnangis..lega...tp ni bru before class..xstart mngajar pn lg..

ni la 2 students 4 thun yg sgt comel tu..

1st class start dgn kelas jawi n iqra'..sya kena mngajar level pling rendah..mostly yg pling kecil2..yg x tau pape, yg tau iqra 1 dan 2..tp basically, sya trlantik utk fokus pd students yg 4thn ni..ada 3 org semuanya..ni cbrn pling besar ni..mereka mmg x de idea lngsg ttg alif,ba,ta..hmmmmm...

bygkn tgh mngajar tu..tiba2 sorg dr mereka blh tunjuk kertas n pensil smbil ckp..'can u draw a ponny for me??'..huhu..pulak dah..hihi..kes lain plak..tgh dok2 mnulis jawi tu, blh plak mereka main rmbut kwn2..aduhai,mcm2 kerenahnya..bkn sng nk mngajar mereka ni..mereka sng sgt distracted..kna pndai tarik blik attention mereka..n teknik pling brkesan bg sya personally, kna pndai role play..haha..mcm2 watak sya guna wkt mngajar tu..smpai trpaksa jd kertas nk pujuk mereka tulis alif ba ta ats krtas tu..comelnya students ni..smpai kering tekak nk mngajuk suara2 yg blainan..tp alhamdulillah, sgala usaha rasa berbaloi bila by the end of klas jawi tu, 3 budak2 comel ni tau sebut alif smpai tha dan blh bezakannya..walaupn ada yg lukis huruf ba mcm rupa kapal, tp x pe la..at least ada rupa ba tu..ada juga la input..

sesi kedua plak, kelas pngisian..smlm topik tauhid n sirah..tp kali ni sya conduct kelas level prtengahan..kira ok gak la..tp still,xlari dr cabaran cuma cbrnnya lain pula dr bdk2 kecil td tu..1 perkara yg sya perasan, mybe sbb ddedahkn dgn culture sekolah d sini, blh dkatakan hmpir kesemua mereka aktif dlm kelas..sntiasa berebut2 nk angkt tgn mnjwb soaln wlaupn kdg2 mereka x tahu pn apa jwpnnya..yg penting mereka nk cuba juga..cthnya bila dtanya 'apa rukun iman yg keenam?' or translate bg mereka yg x faham melayu, 'what's the 6th pillar of iman?'..blh dkatakn semua mereka angkt tgn nk jwb..even yg pling pndiam skali pn..so,mcm2 la jwpn yg dberi..semuanya x betul pn..n even ada yg jwb 'owh, i know it but i can't remember right now'..haha..hal lain pula, bila dtanya soaln yg pdhal jwpnnya mudah n ringks je, blh jd jwpn yg mereka beri pnjg lebar, d kaitkn dgn pngalmn2 mereka..in a way, bgus juga mcmni sbb one of the effective teaching strategies is by relating the knowledge with students' experience..so,jd la meaningful learning..n insyaallah, lbh mudah melekat..hmmm,bla diingt kmbali zmn skolah dlu2, jarang jumpa situasi mcmni..slalunya klau kita x tau jwb,just diam je la..tngu la smpai jwpn yg betul dberi..hmmmm,berbeza mmg berbeza..

situasi lain pula,ni dceritakn oleh kwn sya yg mngajar kelas bdk2 level tinggi..pergh..mmg sgt kagum dgn mereka..mereka sgt advance n critical thinking..bygkn, dlm usia kira2 10 hingga 12 thun, mereka blh tanya soaln mcm 'how do we know that islam is the true religion?'.. 'how does Allah looks like?'..aduhai, nasib baik sya x mngajar kelas ni..mati kutu sya nk mnjwbnya..hihi..

ni pula students yg advance tu..

secara kseluruhan..mmg sgt2 la mncabar..pdhal baru 3 jam je..masih x blh bygkn mcmana bila jd cg sebenar lg..alhamdulillah, brsyukur sgt2 sbb d beri peluang utk dpt pngalamn mcmni..in a way, it helps me to get clearer idea of how teaching looks like..n it also helps me to improve my english(seriously, kagum sgt2 dgn english bdk2 nie..siap dgn accent lg..mmndgkn ada antara mereka yg x brapa fhm malay, trpaksa la kami mngajar in english most of the time)... mnarik bukan???

ni antara ustazah2 yg terlibat..my teammates..
(ada 2 lelaki n 1 prmpuan x de dlm gmbr)

Autumn In My HEART

Time passes fast without we realizing it. and now, it's weekend again..welcome weekand!!! not knowing what to do right now, it makes my mind flies to Malaysia, to my family..how i miss them so much. it reminds me of our precious autumn break together(it would be more precious if papa,along and sue were also here)..they spent about 9days here and here's are some activities that we did together..so much fun and unforgettable memories..


1st day (Friday,2April)- they arrived early in the morning. we then went to the city (king george square) and UQ (University of Queensland). this is where mak su studied 20years ago. such a nostalgic moment.

2nd day (Saturday,3April)- we went to Woolies, wet market and Ismail shop (halal meat shop). mama wants to know how my day life looks like. buying chicken, meat, fresh veges.-'mom's cook'..ya, the best chef ever..in the evening, we went to South Bank.. we then enjoyed the night scenery on the 'city cat' (ferry).



3rd day (Sunday,4April)-we went to Lone Pine Koala Sanctuary. the most excited person was my sis(1st time meeting Mr.Kangaroo and Miss Koala).


4th day (Monday,5April)-We went to Harbour Town. shopping!!!!!

5th day (Tuesday,6April)-We went to DFO. too excited... we were there before the shops opened. It's ok. at least it gave us time to survey what's in there.then,shopping!!!! again..


6th day (Wednesday,7April)-My day off for trips. I had an appointment with Emma, my academic supporter. also need some time to work on my assignment. But, not for my family. They went to Chermside to buy lots and lots of chocolate(it's Easter and they sell various cheap chocolates). just searched for them which bus to take, then there they were..(^^)

7th day (Thursday,8April)-We went to Bribbie Island, Sunshine beach, Noosa Head and Mt. Cootha. Subhanallah..what a wonderful and beautiful creations of Allah...


8th day (Friday,9April)-We went to Gold Coast- my sister and I spent almost the entire day at the Movie World.(luckily there's a prayer room inside it)..my mum and maksu had a 2nd trip shopping at Harbour Town.


9th day (Saturday,10April)- they went back to Malaysia.it was the hardest moment for me and my mum.but not for my sis, I think.she had such a wonderful trip with lots and lots and lots of photos (^___^)

overall,we had wonderful time together.but that did not concern my mum much..The main purpose of her visited me was to make sure that I'm fine and everything goes well. and that's what I tried to show her since the very 1st day. "Lega hati mama tgk awak ok dkt sini. x de la mama risau sgt". Huhu..I felt like crying at that moment and yes, I did. I admit, I'm her little baby. but don't worry mama, I'm learning right now to be more independent but still, no matter how independent I am, 1 thing for sure, I will always be your little baby...ALWAYS..
Miss all of U (mama,papa,along,angah,suraya)..

*for those whose family are planning to come and visit you..do plan your journey to the fullest. make use of all the time. spend your time preciously with your family..